hello hello from canton d’orford.
life is good to me- hanging with anika and don *finally* at long last. lots of fun pics to come.
why is home never where my heart is?
bonjour, mes amies!
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Monthly Archives: August 2006
goals, life, and not believing in coincidence
i had an excruciatingly bad day two days ago. i made a badbadbad mistake. so bad that the thought of booking on my job actually crossed my mind. now, this was no ordinary “I gotta get the hell outta hereâ€?, this was an all-out “CRAP. i need to get the hell outta here. i’ll never be able to talk to craig again…. i should leave the countryâ€? feeling. thankfully i “stuck it outâ€? (thanks, papa) and was able to fix the issue for very little cost to the client. dammit.
after that happened i was sure some kind of retribution should be paid. nothing like lightening striking me down, but a wee fender-bender, or my toilet breaking down or something along that purgatorial line.
i waited.
finished painting my office, its a pretty robin’s egg blue. moved all my furniture back in the office, looks fiftygazillion times better- clean, organized, clutter-free, etc. worked my ass off- people like me. went out for dinner with the grandparents, had a super good time, inherited good knickknacks and another two years of National Geo. started recording with ernad and it went really well. got paid a super nice check and found out that i got a bonus (FRIGGINFAT)… what coincidence?
hmmmm. grace is a really neat-o thing.
goals are getting completed, that makes me feel even better. why the neurosis drives me to check the items off the list i’ll never know. 1&2: starting on the check, 3: hopefully i’ll buy the books today, 4: resting is a state of mind that i work hard at every day.
the end.
hooray for fullford days.
(end of) summer goals…?
looking back on the summer, i have not really accomplished any of my goals other than 1. meeting with gordon to discuss incorporation and 2. working. hmmmm. i have one month left and my debts have only a wee dent in them, my apartment is still not painted, etc, etc, etc. time to reasses. i have one month left before school starts – but i have some good news! i registered for classes two days ago and i got all the ones i wanted :) three anthro which will be lots of fun (archaeology, cross-sultural gender, and fossil homonids) and the fourth one should be a cake-walk: intro to computers!!! hows that for the “easy a”.
August goals:
- paint the apartment: this one is going to take a lot of initiative. i have been working over-time to try to get my debts to go away… so now i have got to buckle down, forget about a personal life, and just paint the stinkin thing.
- pay off debts: in other words “forget about social life and STOP using the visa”.
- start pre-reading for school: my fall semester will be pretty heavy-duty so i want to go to the book store soon and get all my books. at least pre-reading the intros and conclusions should get me a leg up…
- rest. yeah right.
so there it is. my goals for this month. it shouldn’t be too hard, it will just take a lot of self-discipline.
the end.
laptop and other things
yeaaaaaaaah! i got my laptop back! so very strange how one little piece of harware can own so much of my life, almost so much of my soul! note to self: start backing up important data again. (irony runs thick in my life).
school starts soon. tomorrow i get to register for courses again. not sure if i am happy, scared, freaked out, pissed off, or what. ah well, this place of perpetual waiting in motion is a good place to be. I can’t make any mistakes by continuing to learn while going nowhere or changing nothing.
time to grow some moss.